Summer.

My summer in a nutshell...


1.) When I began rehearsals for Cinderella, I was absolutely convinced that the actors didn't like me at all.
2.) I soon found out that was wrong. And I fell in love with this cast! Everyone was so nice and no one was the slightest bit clique-y. Everyone loved each other!
3.) I learned how to dance! I had never done partner work prior to rehearsing Joseph, and I was SOOOO scared at first, but I caught on quickly and I had the BEST time!
4.) I realized just how short I actually am. I was the shortest wife in Joseph, one of the smallest people inCinderella, and many of the kids in Jack were just as tall as me or even taller!
5.) I figures out how to do a Jersey mobster accent. I don't think it's the best, but it's good enough to make people think I hired a vocal coach (not at all - just watched a few Godfather clips on YouTube!)
6.) I discovered that old feelings do not die within my innermost self. I've had a bit of a crush on the same person for three years.
7.) Said Person is not only now one of my best friends, he's also more of an older brother to me than my actual brother. (awkward-sounding? YES. Makes sense to me? YES... somehow.)
8.) I said goodbye to some of the GREATEST people and it hurts a lot. I didn't realize I would miss so many people!
9.) I realized that I can never compete with my other friends for one of my best friends' attention, and I decided to stop trying. I'm going to miss him a lot, but I don't think we'll ever be as close as we were before he decided he was in love with another of our friends...
10.) I met the HOTTEST boy. Too bad he's gay and his boyfriend's a douche.
11.) I finally realized the genius of Avett Brothers lyrics.
12.) I'm such an awkward person. It really sucks.
13.) I NEED MY LICENSE!
14.) I nearly fell in love, but I realized that he was stupid, so I got over him fast.
15.) I need to give myself more credit sometimes.
16.) It was only meant to last a couple days, but every time I put myself down, I STILL say two nice things about myself. (Thanks a lot, Adam!)
17.) I cry when I say goodbye to the people I love. I cry a LOT.
18.) I learned a lot of things about sex from my other "Mom" (Thanks, Brandi. Haha)
19.) College advice? "Have fun, be free, party hard, study harder, and don't get pregnant!" (Again, thank you, Adam.)
20.) My entire life has changed SO much. I can't believe how much I've grown up in just a few short months.

So, thank you for impacting my life so much. Summer 2010 was the best one yet.

<3


P.S.: I'm going to start a new blog for college! How exciting! =D

Breakeven.

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no

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"And I won't be far from where you are, if ever you should call. You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all."
- Missy Higgins, "Where I Stood"

Run.

"Run" - Snow Patrol

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

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"I always thought as different as we are, some how we could still be together. And now I don't know. "
- Sookie Stackhouse, True Blood

Stand.

"Here's Where I Stand" - Tiffany Taylor (From the motion picture CAMP)

Here in the dark
I stand before you
Knowing this is my chance to show you my heart
This is the start
This is the start

I have so much to say and I'm hopin'
That your arms are open
Don't turn away, I want you near me
But you have to hear me

Here's where I stand
Here's who I am
Love me, but don't tell me who I have to be
Here's who I am, I'm what you see

You said I had to change and I was tryin'
But my heart was lyin'
I'm not a child any longer
I am stronger

Here's where I stand
Here's who I am
Help me to move on but please don't tell me how
I'm on my way, I'm movin' now

In this life we've come so far
But we're only who we are
With the courage of love
To show us the way
We've got the power to stand up and say

Here's where I stand
Here's where I am
Stand up and be counted, I'm counting on you
If you're with me
We'll make it through

Here's where I stand
Here's who I am
Love me, love me, love me and we'll make it through
Here's where I stand
Baby, baby, baby I'm counting on you

Here's where I stand
Love me, love me, love me and we'll make it through
I'm counting
I'm counting
I'm counting, I'm counting on you

Sweatshirt.